live like you will be die tomorrow

i just checked around my blog, recently. 
well, last of these days i didn't post anything in here.


yeah, i have been very busy with the things called "bunkasai" or japan festival which will be hold on next month, June, 17th. This is my first time to be the event coordinator in such a big event like this. Even though i have ever worked in some concerts or made a lot of events in BDI organization, but honestly this is the first time to be a coordinator in a 100 millions worth event and work with a lot new friends.


No wonder, i must work 2 times harder and also manage my time. Despite running on Bunkasai, I still have my final report to be done in July, journalistic club's project, and also i must prepare for the youth camp called REACH in July with the team and members. Sometimes, I give up and feel regret to take this job. I feel kind of hard to prepare all the things and blaming this event that i could write my final report properly. 


However, the tired and regret feeling finally, influence my mood, moreover it impact to my love life. recently, i felt that my boy was act not like usual. We didn't communicate very often like before, and seem like he lost his interest to me. I felt so afraid, yet worry if i really have to lose him. This thinking made "kegalauan" for several days. Finally, i asked him what is happened actually, then we turned into a big fight.  Finally, he said that he just want me to make him as priority. Oh, really, I feel very sorry to him for being not a good girlfriend.


After i asked to my friends, this is a common thing for couples . Maybe because i worried too much and it made me think negatively. I have to be really patient and keep trying to understand him well. So, i want to be more mature in this relationship.


Back to the topic,

Not only the love things, but also happened with my life.
I spent these several days of my life with anger, negative thinking, even laziness. I felt like a stupid and living with nothing worth. Just being lazy all the time. 

I have forgot my goals, my achievements, and just follow my ego.I lost my heart and passion. I forgot to think bigger again; thinking for another people,not "me".

But, now I realize, like my relationship, i need to get up and to be mature too in what i'm doing now. Life is too short. Live like you will be die tomorrow.

So, throw away all the negatives and step in a new world. GOD bless ME :)